Still Pregnant (a.k.a. 37 weeks)

Why, hello, 37 weeks. I'm so glad you're here. This means Baby B is now considered a full term baby! That doesn't make it easier knowing she could make her appearance at any time. For example, last night I had some pretty strange dreams and woke up about every 2 hours wondering if I were in labor. Of course I wasn't but it still had me pretty freaked out each and every time I woke up.

At week 37, Baby B is measuring around 18 to 20 inches long and weighs between 6 and 9 pounds. I'm praying she's on the smaller end of that scale but my OB says this baby is definitely on the bigger side of things. At this point, baby is gearing up for life outside my body. She's practicing things like inhaling, exhaling, sucking, gripping and blinking. She's also brushing up on her super spastic yoga moves as well.

As for me, well, that's another story. Emotions have definitely kicked in and I'm genuinely freaked out about becoming a mother. Both in the physical labor part and in the Will I Make A Good Mother way. B and I had a great (horrible) idea of watching child birthing videos a few nights ago. I have watched my fair share of births and think the whole process is pretty amazing but now I know it's about to happen to me. That makes me want to crawl in a hole and die. It also confirmed my yearning for an epidural the minute I walk through the door in labor. There is no way this girl will ever feel the "ring of fire".

It was also brought to my attention last night while getting ready for bed that I use my blog to share a little too much information. B tells me my blog posts are becoming a little risqué. I rolled my eyes and then reminded myself that it is wrong and I could go to jail for suffocating my husband with my Snoogle pillow. Plus, I need him to help out with night time feedings.

He also helped out with this...

Yep. He wrapped my poor swollen ankles in cabbage leaves. How sweet of him.

The Good: Baby is basically less than a few weeks away from coming to play with us!! How exciting!? The doctor also said I am 1.5 cm dilated now. It may have been a very small progression but it's progress either way.

The Bad: I'm definitely starting to have more dreams about the delivery day that tend to keep me up at night. Nothing too freaky yet but they still wake me up and make me wonder if everything is truly ready for the baby's arrival.

The Inappropriate: I would have put this under the good but, per B, this is TMI so I thought a new category would work here. My inappropriate update for this week is..... I HAVE BREAST MILK!!!! Not tons but just a little bit. I am able to hand express very small amounts of colostrum. I've always worried about being able to successfully breast feed the baby but now there's hope for me!

Sorry, B.

See you next week...... maybe.

-W